I am scheduled for a section on Friday at 11 am. Baby is not interested in turning over, in fact he is often lying diagonally. So we have to go in after him. I am excited and anxious and nervous. I am not really excited about being cut open while I am awake and numb. But I am more than ready to have this boy.
I've been off work since Thursday last week. And I've been doing some serious last ditch nesting and retail therapy. Redecorated a bathroom. Rearranged my bedroom to create a nursing station. Tried to keep the house clean and laundry under control and tried to nap every day. I have one more full day left. I need to hit the grocery store and might possibly get my toes done since they are in sad shape and I can't reach them at all to fix them.
At my doctor visit today there was a lady in the lobby waiting for her 2 week postpartum check-up. She had her new baby boy with her and he was the perfect little tree-frog baby. My fingers were itching to hold him . I can't wait to get this boy on the outside so I can cuddle him.
I just hope my post surgical pain doesn't make it too hard to move around.
Man this is so different from last time.
I went to the hospital today to do paperwork and get some lab work done so I don't have to do it all on Friday morning.
I asked my doctor about the few things that are important to me to see if I can have at least a couple of things my way even though I can't deliver naturally. It means a lot to me to not have the baby's cord clamped and cut immediately. With a section, I feared there was no way around it. But I decided to ask anyway. See if the doc could maybe just give the baby a minute or two to start breathing on his own, suction him before cutting the cord. Let him get some of his own cord blood before being cut off. To my surprise and pleasure, my doc agreed that unless I am bleeding too much and/or the baby is in distress there is no reason he can't delay clamping and cutting the cord for a minute. So that makes me happy. I understand that I will be open on the table and there is risk of infection, but people have 12 hour heart surgeries. I will assume the risk of a couple more minutes if that means my son gets his cord blood.
The other thing is not as big a deal. But I don't want them to put the antibiotic ointment in his eyes before I get to see him. I know they are going to want to do all the little things they insist on doing to brand spanking new babies while I am being sewn up in the OR. But I do not want the first time he and I get to look at each other to be blurred by goop in his eyes. They can wait to do that, if they really need to do it at all, until he and I get some time together. My doc says that is fine too. I just have to be very vocal and remind him about not cutting the cord and make sure David, who will go with the baby, keeps them from putting the ointment in his eyes. He is also supposed to make sure that I get the baby in my arms at the first possible moment.
So yeah, I am having some control issues to deal with. I am going to be strapped to a table and can't control every aspect of the delivery and have to let the baby leave my side. I have to submit. But I don't have to like it, and I know enough to be the annoying squeaky wheel to have some of the important things my way. And I have a doctor that I trust to carry out my wishes as long as it is safe to do so. I guess that is all I can control.